The past few weeks, I've been trying to figure out who I am. It all started when the guy I like asked me what he should call me (because I have so many nick-names). And, I had no idea what to tell him. I mean, I don't mind being called Mackenzie, but I guess it was too long. I don't want him to call me Kenzie because thats what my family calls me. And since he met me he thought my name was Kat. Until I told him it was just a nickname that my idiot friends came up with. So, I started to think about who I am. Am I Kenzie, the sweet little girl my family thinks I am? Am I Kat, this 'airhead' preppy red-head that my friends know? Or am I Mackenzie, just a regular teenage girl that doesn't really stand out? I should know right? Wrong. I have no clue who I am or what I'm going to do with my life. I wish I did though. Maybe then everything would be easier. Life, friends, family. Everything. Heres what I think. I think I've turned too much into the girl everyone wants or expects me to be and I haven't really focused on what I want. I've been living the life that everyone else has laid out for me. I've been living someone elses life. Living in a fairytale.. that isn't mine. And I can't continue to make everyone else happy if it means me not being happy. 'Cause obviously that isn't an option anymore. More to come.
She lives in a fairytale, somewhere too far for us to find. Forgotten the taste and smell of the world she's left behind...
~Ivnisible Girl
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